Melissa Boss-Stories-Written-On-The-Floor

Something good came from COVID19 pandemic. As I was walking my dog in Athens, GA and I was listening to Maverick City, the LORD through his holy spirit spoke to me and said, "If you write it, I will bless it." My reaction in between the shock was a mixture of love and confusion at first because I had been writing to the LORD in my journals since I got saved in 2017. In faith, through the thick tears that automatically fell down my face and me not feeling worthy or equipped for this, I said, "Yes, Lord.". In that moment, I hit my knees in worship to the LORD after accepting this calling to write. And, in that moment, I was filled with the Holy Spirit. I would love to tell you that I took off right away, delved into writing led by the Lord and wrote a book, but no. I was confused about who I was in Christ. I was so full of fear, anxiety and insecurity from my past that I did not share what the Lord gave me daily. I became selfish and kept it all to myself. I did write, but I kept it in secret. Occasionally I would share but then I would withdraw after sharing driven by fear. I was a mess spiritually, mentally, and psychologically. Why would he ask me to do this. I told myself that I would fail before I even tried. This cycle went on for few years until I came to complete exhaustion. His yoke is easy, and his burden is light! Right!? We see this in the Holy Bible. This is true. Why do I feel so heavy I asked God. The LORD pushed me down to my knees and convicted me to 'let go and let him.' This previous "control freak" was super prideful and internally thought... I've got this LORD. I hear you. I am writing it down. What else do you want from me. What's next? I came to place that I was so desperate to go deeper in the Lord and not fully knowing who I am in Christ Jesus, I almost quit so many times. The LORD just wanted my heart. He wanted a relationship with me. I was focused on my works for him and not on relationship at the time. I allowed the voice of the enemy to hold me down in bondage and captivity that kept a wall up between me and the LORD. I pursued God with a fire in my soul like I previously did with substances. God expects obedience. Long story short. I once was an addict and now I am a new creation in Christ Jesus. I have made a lot of poor choices and God loved me in my pain. He accepted me right where I was in a dark pit of hell and filth from the world. I will never forget the day that I called on his name back in 2017 in my bathtub. I wanted to die BUT GOD came, and he saved me. The words that came out was not mine but his. I accepted Jesus into my heart in that moment. I ran 10 miles after getting out of that tub. I got lost in the wilderness. When I returned back home, I was literally running to get ready for church as fast as I could. Keep in mind, I had not been in church in 30 years! I did not acknowledge God, and I even cussed out Jesus at some point. I could not wait to meet the one that just gave me this gift of peace when I was in such a hopeless state of mind. Within a week, God carried me into treatment, and it has not been perfect since then, but I celebrate 7 years this year in September right before my daughter's 7th Birthday. Today, the LORD has blessed me with two beautiful children. I am pursing my Veterinary Technology career again and am also working on my certification for Christian Leadership at the College of Athens. 'Stories Written on the Floor' came to me while me and my littles were in a women's battered shelter in 2024. I was spiritually, mentally, physically, and emotionally in a very broken and dark place. The LORD was knocking on the door to my heart calling on my name once my littles went to sleep that first week over and over again. I wanted to respond in anger, but I couldn't even lift my own hands up to praise him or hold my fist together to be mad at him. I remember saying that I give up on my plan God. What is your plan? He said, " You're ready now. If you write it, I will bless it!" Again, I wrestled with God in my own strength that night for three hours on the floor similar to Jacob and then I finally surrendered, and he gave me this title after I accepted. I fear the LORD and I want to obey him in ALL my ways moving forward. This was when I finally started fasting along with praying. I feel called to share Stories Written on The Floor with you and I am excited for what is to come. I give all Glory to the LORD Jesus Christ. He is the same yesterday, today and forever. Let us magnify the LORD together!! Melissa Boss